Question: I am 40 years old and have been suffering with what I thought was sleep paralysis for as long as I can remember.
It always starts the same: I think I have woken up and try to turn on my bedside lamp. When it doesn’t go on I know I am still asleep, then the attack starts.I feel a hot feeling in my private parts (I am male) and smell a hot smell. It is not nice. Then I feel hands grabbing at my private parts and I am frozen with fear but I can speak, so I say the Lords prayer but it doesn’t make any difference.It is only in the past year that I have started feeling the hands grabbing at me. Sometimes I can move and try to pull the unseen hands off me but I never can. Am I dreaming or being attacked by a spirit or even an alien?I am scared to go to sleep. I also speak in my sleep but as I live alone I only found out how much I speak or scream when I stay with my brothers.Please can anyone help me as I don’t know where to turn. I have the feeling that whatever is going on is not good as I feel a bad presence. I try to fight to wake myself up, and normally I can after what seems a long time.I normally know when I am dreaming (I always have done) so when I feel the dream going bad I wake myself up, but this is different. I can’t control what is happening to me and it is getting worse each time it happens. Please can someone help me as I cant keep being scared to go to sleep. Something is trying to get me in my sleep and it is succeeding.